I love this man. I feel like I've gotten to know him more in the past two years than I have in the past 15 years of our life together. That's what comes from more time at home than we either had hoped for or desired! I've watched him handle a loss of job, disappointment after spending months trying to start a new company and failing to see it come to pass, and the constant stress of trying to make things happen to support his family financially. I've also witnessed a devoted father and husband as he makes breakfast in the morning, takes the kids to school, coaches two basketball teams, and spends time to get to the heart of his family. I've seen him slow down and invest in relationships with his family, neighbors and new friends. I've been the beneficiary of his many hobbies including wood working and wine making. The kids have been his little shadows as he teaches them new things and takes time to play. His constant presence in our home these past couple of years has changed our family forever.
I'm not saying that this season was without heartache and weariness. There was plenty of that. And getting used to having him home all the time, was not an easy transition! We both had to take roles that we did not wish to take. It felt uncomfortable and unnatural. I have a new admiration for working mothers. You always have a part of your mind and heart with your children.
But this season of waiting brought us to our knees. It was a reminder that our security only comes from the Lord, and not from a salary. A reminder that trusting the Lord with the unknowns is much more freeing than having every step of the future planned out. A brokenness that makes us aware of how much we need Jesus. We didn't handle the waiting perfectly. But, we have a deeper understanding of grace. We are more in love with our Savior and with each other. I want to remember this season. I don't want our family to ever be the same.
Jared started a new job two weeks ago as Director of Operations for an oil and gas company in the Dallas area. It's quiet around here on my days off. I miss having the slow mornings with him as we drink coffee and talk about trivial and deeper things. I kind of miss the interruptions in my plans and the added noise in the house.
But, we are so thankful. The Lord has been so faithful to our family in this season of waiting. We will look back to this time with fondness. Thank you all for your prayers and encouragement during this time. We love you!